Why I write
1 Peter 4:10
Each of you should
use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of
God's grace in its various forms.
My fascination with writing started when I was
very young, it began with my love for words and reading. My mother read to my
siblings and I when we were young, I was about five. When she would clean the
house she would put on records and hand us a book and the recording narrated
the book as we read along singing the songs. When I started elementary school
my teacher would read to the class as we sat in a circle and I would listen attentively hanging on every word she said. Eventually, I read alone in my room
when I could and that habit carried on until now, I love to read. When I became
a preteen, I had all these emotions sadness, happy, frustration, anger and
sometimes fear, all the feelings that come when a child becomes aware of their
surroundings, I experienced. I was a bit more sensitive than most. I believe
writers and artists have an innate sensitivity to their environment,
psychologist would call them empaths of various degrees.
An empath is when you are affected by other
people's energies, and have an innate ability to intuitively feel and perceive
others. Your life is unconsciously influenced by others' desires, wishes,
thoughts, and moods. I’ve since learned to control my sensitivity to others
emotions, it can become detrimental to your health and peace of mind.
With all these emotions and nowhere to release
them, my mother purchased a diary for me, and so began my love affair with
writing. I filled my diary with all my emotions, every incident I would
experience, pain, happiness, anger, sadness and frustration; they all went into
a compartment of dates and times placed on paper. My diary was my catalog of
expression, pent up emotions that I could not share with anyone; I kept a diary
until I was eighteen.
I also wanted to express myself in that way and
at thirteen I wrote my first poem.
Writing began for me as a way to express my
emotions, I felt at the time no one could understand what I was feeling. It
gave me the freedom to connect to my inner emotions that would have otherwise found
no way of release. Even now, when I don’t or cannot write I feel a sense of
imbalance, it is something I know I am supposed to do, I’ve come to an
understanding it wasn’t a gift I was to keep to myself.
I write poetry to express the images that I
envision in my mind into artistic wordplay, it is about creativity and the
expression of that creativity...
In that conception I can use words to communicate
the thoughts of how I see the world, nature, circumstances, etc., from my
spiritual perspective. Some of my poetry is abstract and the reader can use
their own interpretation to its meaning (my favorite type of poetry) and then I
write some poetry that is straight to the point. As a writer, it becomes my
responsibility to share my perception, to express what I feel and to inspire
others to do the same in whatever gifts they were blessed with. I started
writing to release a lot of things that needed to be let out, if I didn’t I’m
sure those extreme emotions would have negatively affected my life. It was my
way of finding a spiritual plateau and balance in my life.
We all need to find that place of balance and how
we get there depends on how important it is for each of us to do what is right
for ourselves and others. For me, I not only love to write, but I love the
inspiration I receive from reading and enjoying the artistic creation and
perception of others.
So express yourself in whatever gifts you are
bless to have and share that gift with others, you will find the treasures of
giving far outweigh the expectation of reciprocation.
1 Corinthians 12:4
There are different
kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit distributes them.
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